April started off great but has quickly gone downhill. On the 4th I was told I was going to be laid off on the 27th. Don’t get me wrong, having a beach bum summer sounds amazing but I cannot foresee my finances being as thrilled about it as my brain. Also, Jack whom I mentioned in “I Feel Like a Girl Once Again” decided somewhere between – “I can’t believe we waited this long” and taking hour long showers together that mostly consisted of us sitting in the tub letting the water hit us while we were all wrapped up with each other just talking (total fucking amazingness) that I wasn’t important enough to speak to. Busy or not, it takes 2 seconds to send a text and that text would have worked wonders for me. I’m disappointed. Not nice. Not nice at all. FUCK!!
But wait, like a bad late night infomercial, THERE’S MORE!! A few days after Jack and I started “talking” (for lack of a better word), a FB friend (we’ll call him Joe) asked me out. With being totally geeked up about Jack as well as a one guy at a time kinda girl, I respectfully declined and explained why. Joe seemed nice enough, I just can’t do the whole date as many guys as possible thing. I need to like you to go out with you and I need to really like you to sleep with you, and past experience (One Day Closer to the Cat Lady) has proven even really liking you could backfire! My point is, he accepted it. Then all this went down with Jack and I posted a status on FB that read “another one bites the dust”. If you read my blog you know what that means but I don’t promo on FB so most did not. I don’t promo on there because, well, I’m obnoxious on there and although I am here as well, I am also pretty open here. Weird that I’m ok with total and complete strangers knowing intimate details about my life but not people I actually know….yeah, I don’t make much sense but whatever. Totally off subject here….my point is since I have posted that status Joe has started texting/emailing. First of all – I don’t really know him and from what I do know, I think he’s too sensitive and I will end up eating and spitting him out in a matter of weeks. He’ll take offense to the guys on my page saying the things they do (I’m raunch friendly) he’ll get all weird when I tell him to STFU…basically, I just don’t think he can handle my crazy. Secondly – he has been “talking” to a very good friend of mine as well. I don’t have all of the details right now, but I do know he was trying with her two nights ago and then asked me out last night. HA! Slow your roll there Mr. Playa…do you really think we weren’t going to discuss you? And if so, did you really think we would be ok with this? Boys are fucking idiots!!!! I’m am currently waiting for her to wake up so I can get the low down on what happened last night so I can call him out on it. This will be the highlight of my Wednesday! haha Regardless of all of that, every time I get something from Joe via text or email, Jack pops into my head and I think, “why can’t Jack be doing this?” Clearly I’m not ready to let it go. Hey, I told you this one burnt me good – don’t judge. FUCK!!
Then we have this old friend of mine, who I was once very close too. My ex and I were very close to him and his wife…and now everyone is divorced or in my case, no longer living in sin. Within the last few months he has sent me emails jam packed full of compliments…which were sweet but awkward at the same time. I cannot in any way shape or form date him for moral reasons even if I were interested in that way, which I am not. Yeah, well guess who shows up where my wingman and I were at last week? That would be him. Guess who left me alone with him last week? That would be my wingman. Guess who ended up getting his lips planted on her due to being left high and dry last week? That would be me! Now, it was in no way a bad kiss. It was nice but I stopped it and left as quickly as possible because he is who he is and I am who I am and it just cannot happen. FUCK!
I saved this one for last because this one is the one that I will get the most slack about. There is this guy, who shamelessly flirts with me and has done so even before Jack *sigh* <—-yes, apparently whenever his name is mentioned, whether it be his fake blog name or real, I sigh like a fuckin idiot. Anyway this other guy – he’s funny, cute, has tats, not tall enough but totally workable….there’s only one catch. He’s married – now stop judging and read the rest – which is why NOTHING HAS EVER HAPPENED. I just frequent hanging out where he is and let him boost my ego. I’m not really proud of it, but at least I’m being honest. It should be known that boosting my ego only works when his wife doesn’t sit down next to me! FUCK!
With all that said, I realize its not like I don’t get attention. But this comes in spurts and always has. The minute I get into something with someone, the boys seem to pop out of the woodwork. It doesn’t last very long and 99.8% of the time, the attention comes from boys that I am either not interested in or can’t have. And then there will be silence….silence for months and months and MONTHS!
The moral of this blog? There isn’t one. I just wanted to say FUCK a lot.
~Shut The Chelle Up~ 